Being Comfortable with Aloneness

This week is UNC’s spring break. It started off great! We beat Dook (again) and rushed Franklin for the second time this year. Since I was the last one to leave, I spent all of Saturday morning blasting One Direction and cleaning my house. It was a couple of hours of therapeutic scrubbing. Saturday afternoon, I went home to hang out with my family for a few days before flying off to start my journey of personal growth. And here comes the real deal.

Anyone who knows me even a little knows that I love people. I’m such an extrovert that the thought of being alone for more than a few hours is terrifying. While some people love the idea of being able to live by themselves, the thought of not having roommates, of coming home to an empty house every day, makes me want to scream. So, when one by one, all my friends started making spring break plans, I began to panic. I knew I wanted to get out of North Carolina. I knew I wanted to go somewhere warm. All my friends were visiting other friends, or going to colder places.

After weeks of deliberation, I decided I would go to Miami for spring break. I’d ask some people if they wanted to come with me but if they didn’t, I’d go by myself. It was time to stop letting go of experiences because I didn’t have company. I needed to learn to be alone and be comfortable with being alone. What better way to do that than a beach city with plenty to do?

So here I am, I arrived in Miami this afternoon. The weather is everything I’ve been hoping for. The beach is beautiful. I can’t wait to spend my days there. It’s still really weird to be by myself; to ask for a seat at dinner for one, to tell Uber drivers I’m on vacation alone. But hopefully, this vacation will show me that my extrovert can be isolated. I can be happy with just myself. Stay tuned to see how it goes!

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